Athena Grayson

Doing something a bit differently in this post. Inspired by a comment on a yahoo group for Indie authors, I penned a response that was reminiscent of those times when the writing flows so well, it’s almost like the universe wants me to write what’s being written. The comment addresses how frustrating it can be when you observe a trend that passes you by. As authors, we are all keenly aware of our uniquely personal pacing of production–how long it takes me to write a book is not how long it takes someone else. I could be a speed freak compared to them…or they could whiz by me so fast they go to plaid on my radar (points for you if you get that reference).

But it’s not just writers who experience this. Any creative person–hell, anybody with a good idea, or even just someone who finds last week sale on widgets the day after it ends, have all felt the keen pressure of something having passed us by.

So here’s the thing for writers.

When Amanda Hocking was doing her thing, there were just as many of us thinking we should have gotten on the Erotic Romance gravy train sooner because Ellora’s Cave and the epublishers were selling like hotcakes. And before that, it was vampires. Before that, it was chick-lit stories about city girls who obsessed about shoes, and some of us couldn’t get our shoe queen stories out there fast enough. There is always *something* that’s new and flashy and will make a mint o’ money for those who are lucky enough to be in the right place at the right time with the right book(s). You can either always be missing out on someone else’s timeline…or you can recognize that your timeline is your own, and you’re exactly where you need to be.

One day, that will be us, we all hope. But the reality is, that even those “overnight successes” were in the business, just paddling along, for five, ten, fifteen, twenty years until they hit that magical combo of luck, skill, talent, and voice that launched them. You never know when it will be your turn, and you can’t make the lottery hit your numbers. So you keep on paddling along. Write the books that make you want to get up in the morning and write. Put them out there so that reader who *doesn’t* want to get up in the morning can find them and read them and realize they’ve given *her* a reason to get up in the morning and keep going. Own your awesome, and be awesome on your own schedule, because that is what lasts. In the fallow periods after they hype hits, where everyone moans that they’ve been glutted with vampires, or single in the city stories, or will barf if they see one more rom-com with a cartoon cover, if that’s what you love, there will still be awesome in your work, and that awesome will find readers who aren’t yet sick of fangs, Jimmy Choos, or cartoon covers.

And that is what you can take to the bank.

It’s just as true if you paint watercolor landscapes, but bemoan the fact that everybody wants digital photography right now. Or if you were Goth back when we had to steal Grandma’s crochet tablecloths and dye them black in plastic buckets before we sewed our own dresses out of them (why do you think batwings were so in Goth Vogue–less cutting!), and now see the kids going into the pre-packaged mall store that has all the velvet and lace finds in one convenient place (brand new, rather than pre-owned, and already in dress-shape and not incorrectly labeled as curtains!). You will always be a beat behind someone else’s timeline, simply because you can’t hear the music.

In my personal Act Two, I have to remind myself to keep listening for the musical cues that tell me when to take the stage on my own play, rather than hearing the strains cueing a walk-on to someone else’s. Where’s your beat?

6 Responses

  1. Athena, thank you so much for this positive post. There have definitely been times when I mourned my bad timing in not being in on the start of a trend that (I just know) I would have rocked. I love your advice here–I think I’m going to print it out and tape it over my computer!

  2. Thanks for coming by, Amanda! I need this same reminder on a frequent basis. But it helps to focus on the fact that most of the time, the Universe has put me where *I* need to be, and that trends come and go, but quality work sticks around even when your “thing” might not be surfing a popularity wave.

  3. Athena, thank you so much for this! I really needed this reminder right now. (I actually teared up while I was reading.) I have been going through one of those phases of feeling down-in-the-dumps because I’m not in the same place as “everyone else.” I’m an indie author still working on my first book while “everyone else” is putting out a new book every other week. I know that it isn’t true but sometimes it sure feels that way! Thanks for the timely kick in the rear. Now, if you will excuse me, I’m off to “own my awesome!”

  4. Oh, Linda! Thank YOU for taking the time to share your story! I speak from experience when I say that you go through a LOT of change once you have a work “out there” (and this is true for more than just writing). Suddenly, your creative, nurturing, private, soul-bearing “thing” is up for scrutiny–by strangers, for money, as a business endeavor. Even if it’s something you want so badly you can taste it, you still go through at least a little personal vertigo as your world changes. Enjoy and treasure your time right now, where you’re writing for yourself. Bank that feeling because you’ll return to it throughout your career–it’s the core kernel of Why You Write.

    And of course, Own Your Awesome! 🙂

  5. Thank you so much for writing this blog – I followed the link from the loop …. 🙂 Sometimes it’s hard to embrace our individuality and remain focussed on the authentic stories we have to tell, when everyone around us seems to be caught in some collective upswing that does not resonate with us as writers.
    You’ve reminded me to be true to myself and my muse. Thank you, again.
    Our time will come! 😀

  6. Thank you, Toni! Part of my big reassessment of my life (because I had that, ahem, Big Birthday a few months ago) included what I really, truly wanted to accomplish as a writer–as a creative person. I realized that for me, writing has always been about connection of some sort. I don’t just want to sell books, I want to really connect with people through stories and characters, and like building any relationship, that connection takes time. It should be time I’m willing to spend to craft and nurture. It made me realize that the process is just as worthy as the finished product. 🙂 So own all of your awesome, including your process of getting to awesome! 🙂